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#228 - SIN ; over

i am unbearably tired and feeling more lazy on a saturday evening that i usually do. images of the race just going through my head. i don't know but it's really quite disappointing. even though i did under 1:30. i just figured out that although i had said it out that i wanted to do under 1:30, truth is i wanted to do somewhere near a 1:25 or better? what an idiot i am. i mean if clarissa could do 1:29 in korea (which has freezing waters and some hills in the bike), then why can't i do a much better time right?

don't get me wrong. i am most honoured, most grateful, to have been given the opportunity to rep my country in the asian tri. was a hell of an experience, really was. just that maybe i think i might have been looking forward too much to it, expecting too much of myself? perhaps..

my sister has always told me not to reveal too much about races or training publicly because others will benefit out of it. which isn't really what i want? hah. yeah. selfish as it may sound.. besides, i'm not really in the mood to post my most disgraceful times on the world wide web. but i guess i will just pen down the prep process and race and post race stuff. so i can refer back the next time i decide to do something so "high end". would probably help me to improve.

got there at 8 plus. took a long while for me to find the entrance to the transition point. you see, we went into the other transition area. nobody said anything until we looked really lost cos we couldn't find my number. THEN they told us to go somewhere else. which seemed so far away. waste of energy and time. ugh. right, then when we finally got to transition area. i was so freaked out. heh the thing looked so pro. the transition area that is. i love the bike stands! and er, the girls competing in my category were so scarily pro looking.

then jina helped me out quite a bit. haha i have realised that she has a good heart. very thankful to her. if not for her i would have been so lost. so THANKS JINA! (even though you don't come here) yup she helped me with the number tatoos. they are so cute btw. i've always wondered how they managed to make nicole hackett's number look so.. in shape. now i know. but the thing they gave us was quite bad quality. peeled off after i did warmup.

warmup was sth new to me. i don't usually warmup before a tri or a bi. and er rushing around was very tiring. it was SO HARD to get across the road to the start line. walk here walk there. get re-directed. gosh. sigh.

then clarissa and i hung around the starting area. i was still a bit unsure of the swim route and swim-transition area route. hm it was sunny and after a while i decided to wait in the shade.

soon it was time for us to form up. they were dumb enough to make a starting line thing that was too short. so guess what? i was right behind the guy holding the thing up. so when he dropped it i couldn't budge till a second or so later. waste of time. that made it harder to get near the faster people from other countries. blah omg the waves were so choppy. worse than spore bi. hmm. and they all swim so fast! omg. it's so scary. sigh. anwww, i got lost in the second and third part of the swim. stupid canoeists who were all surrounding me did NOT say anything till i was far off. even when i asked "WHERE!!!" cos i sensed i was a bit off, the woman just said "straight". which was obviously wrong. ugh. okay, so yes finding where to get out of the water was very hard. firstly i couldn't see properly- no glasses. i made the stupid mistake of not remembering to identify any huge landmarks that would help me spot the swim end point. serves me right. hm okay. yah got lost abit more, wasted more time and then i finally got out feeling very pissed off. at myself and at the canoeists who didn't say anything.

transition bridge was tiring to run up and scary to run down. who would have thought that i could go the "wrong way" for transition as well. the marshall who was standing infront of me, who saw me turn the wrong way. did NOT say anything till i had run into a whole buncha barracades. dear marshall, i do not like you. i had half a mind to shout at him. sigh and that precious bit of time was what the other 2 people behind me in the swim needed to catch up. great right?

transition was good. first time so fast. thanks penny for footbath. although in my haste i didn't put on my helmet properly, so couldn't see properly during bike leg.

getting onto the bike was pretty good too. wow never been so smooth. but happy me was not for long cos soon after clarissa overtook me. ahha which i had expected la, her biking is pretty fast. i tried to keep her in sight, but it got hard when i decided i needed to drink water, cos i need to go slow when i drink. i'm not that good at it yet and the last thing i wanted was to lose balance. but the drink energised me quite a bit. it was so hard to drink! cos i was so breathless that i was choking on my drink. scary. never had that problem before. guess i was going at a faster-than-normal pace. backache only came in end of first bike round. hm good thing i didn't fall or stop while turning this time. my legs were all lactic-y so it was hard to pedal hard. i need to increase my leg power.. and get bike shoes.

okay so as i approached the dismount line, i braked. then daddy and penny shouted "DISMOUNT!!!" and oh crap i braked too hard. skidded and landed on my injured rectus femoris and my elbow. elbow lost some skin and my hip is now pretty painful. pity, the injury was getting so much better. anw i was like owch. and shit ofcourse. hah seems like i can't stop falling off my bike. i can rewrite "i can't help fallin gin love with you", change to "i can't help falling off my bike". funny. sigh okay anw then i was so upset. wheeled the thing back to my spot. the dismount line was like 50-60m away from my stuff. so stupid, cos there weren't any bikes taking up that 50-60m stretch, yet they still put the line so far away. nonsense. anw put my bike back, poured a whole bottle of icy water on my head and popped a glucose tablet. i was so breathless that at the first drink point i couldn't drink cos i was choking on it. heh. sigh teh run was BAD.

it was that lazy lazy don't want to push feeling. getting a lot of it nowadays. sigh. i don't know why my running is deproving so much. yupyup anw got through it la. just that i got misdirected by another very stupid marshall. geez where do they get these brainless gits from?! so angry. he said go "this way" so i followed his "this way". then he was so slow in telling me. "uh, wrong way". i asked "where" and he wasn't very clear in saying WHERE. dumbo. so angry. by then you could imagine how pissed off i was, i mean every stretch of the race had been screwed up by something right? and most of the time a marshall was invovled. sigh. the rest of the run was plain crap. i did a faster pace when i did OD. same route some more. nevermind. have to live with it. i couldn't even sprint properly at the end! i always manage to finish off okay. but this time i couldn't. ARGH. demoralizing. i practically walked through the finish line.

i am such a disgrace. hah. post race was hell. that very exhausted feeling mixed with disappointment was terrible. was a ncie experience anyhow.. over all too soon perhaps. next up there's sch nats. sigh. i want to get a new bike helmet (the plastic has been cracking away) and bike shoes. before port dickson hopefully, want to see how good the bike shoes can actually be.

okay i am tired and feeling rather hot. goodbye. it was nice venting. thanks to vania for cheering. i could hear ur voice the most clearly. haha.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [17:47]

and took [20050702] strides

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